That’s the thing about consequences, sometimes they just sneak right up on you. Your reasons were and are multifaceted, but the one thing you hold over all else is loyalty to the cause. Much like Nazis. It is greed motivated and almost like an inverted pyramid scheme. Or, a Russian nesting doll might be a more accurate comparison. I think of it as a siphon with ever another avenue of diversion should one fail. 

The risk benefit ratio was too stacked in your favor for you to walk away from and now you will have to answer for your actions.  This is not the way I wanted things to go, and I do regret letting myself be victimized repeatedly by your little gang of misfits, amongst others.  Just remember, you brought this on.  All you had to do was follow the golden rule.  Yet, even that proved too honorable a task for you.  Too shaped by devotion to a higher being.  Those that have faith in something greater than themselves, blind or otherwise, see the light.  They walk not in the shadows even in the dead of night.  Because the transformative and transcendent can only evolve from those that are believers.  Not in God, but in ourselves.  Not in a Him, but in us.  The power to become more.  Better.  Ethereal perhaps, or assimilated maybe.  A step towards man becoming divine.  The key to the next stage of life.  Lest we are doomed to be like the rest and will always lack fulfillment in life.  Those that will never pass a test they can’t even believe in.  Those that will be staring right into the pole they crash into, (metaphorically).